Happiness is a Choice

Happiness is a choice - The most important thing I've learnt in my life. It really did change my life forever. 

I used to be depressed :-/ That shit sucked. Everything just looked like it wasn't working out yo! life was a bitch, a nasty skank I tell you. I mean when you're flat broke and there's really no light that you see that will shine soon, you don't really feel like smiling.

Then upon many hours of contemplation and sleepless nights, at times with beer, I decided to put this Law of attraction to the test. I decided that I will change the way I think and just fill my head with some happy thoughts like Peter Pan and hope I fly away. It was August 2010 if I'm not mistaken.

I mean at first it seemed silly. I was broke, dropped out of Technikon, unemployed and has spent 18 months missing my 3 front teeth, which completely crushed my sense of being and self-confidence. But I knew one thing, sometimes you just gotta fake it till you make it, and I was faced with a decision here to do just that.

I had no reason, none whatsoever to be happy. But I told myself that Happiness is a choice, My choice. I didn't go around smiling, I simply accepted deep inside that I was happy and content with my circumstances since I was partly to blame for everything, but of course I was solely responsible for everything in my life, but like most people, I was not man enough to admit to myself. With that said, I simply accepted that shit is the way it is, all I could do was try to improve shit. Otherwise, sitting around feeling sad for myself was not doing me any good really. I mean, I had access to information, balls and a brain, what more can you ever need to succeed.

A new chapter in the book of B

And so I put my cigarette out and got up, time for a new me. I smiled a little inside and carried on with my day as usual. Nothing changed really, I still looked trashy lol was still broke BUT I felt good :) For the the first time in almost 3 years I felt good :) I had forgotten what It was like to feel that way, I mean I was either annoyed, sad or drunk for 3 years.

Believe it or not, in about 2 months things started changing. I felt more confident about everything, I looked a little better, not dashing lol but better and I started doing better things. November that year I did something crazy, I attracted a holiday job. Well I actually attracted 2 pairs of sneakers, I told myself I'll get 2 pairs of sneakers no matter what. 2 days later I received a call from a friend that there was a vacancy at the clothing shop he worked for up in Richards bay, and I couldn't say no. At the end of it all I had 2 brand new sneakers; Hahaha Funny enough as I type this shit I'm wearing one of them lol. This alone was enough proof for me. The proof I needed in order to start believing and to apply my new found faith diligently.

The saga continues

That was the beginning of the new way of life, I new I had struck gold here. Gold that lived in me, noone could steal it, noone could fuck with is in any way. When I came back to Durban I had a new perspective yo! 

I could go on forever and I will, but in a book. I promise I'll write a freaking book about my little experience, basically the idea is simple.

When you choose happiness, the universe is obliged to comply with your choice. Because if you choose to be happy inside, and the universe outside creates sadness, that doesn't make sense. What is inside must match what is outside... Simple really. Remember that noone can change what you think inside, only you can.

For now I'll leave it at that :) 

KingNzumbi (**p)